Too Gross to post! But I did it anyway cause you should all feel my pain!

Yes I know it's DISGUSTING! This is my basement floor drains as of last night. We've bee having major pluming problems in our 1950's house. So bad that New Years eve when it flooded (SEWAGE) into our basement we had to tear out EVERYTHING drywall, carpet, tile, our finished basement became unfinished in a day. We though it was fixed but about a month it started backing up again. This is the most disgusting thing I have ever experienced! We have literally had POO, and TOILET PAPER, and you know anything else that goes down THERE coming out of our basement floors. after calling my dad basically in tears we are now officially POO FREE!!! This is what we did this Saturday! My WONDERFUL father came and Dug a HUGE hole in my yard to dig the clog out. It took about 15 hours to dig down 7 feet re-pipe and bury it back. Now we get to wait 3 or 4 months for the ground to settle before we can plant our grass back. All I can say is thank god I can bathe my kids all in the same night! I can do laundry and dishes at the same time! I can go # 2 and not worry about having to see it the next day when I go to go do laundry ( I know it's TMI but seriously, nasty stuff) I am really happy about this! Now on to refinishing our basement...sigh it never ends does it :)

An off day

I'm feeling extremely pissed off today!
The kind of pissed off where I'm just sitting here being pissed off about being pissed off!
I really want to yell at someone, or kick something maybe.
I have lots of reasons to be pissed of, but logically, none of them are really that big of a deal
so I know none of my reasons are really THE reason.
I wonder why I have days like this...
I'm just off my game today

Do I want a baby?

The year is 1999, I'm 18 years old and graduated high school. I'm dating my second serious boyfriend and the answer to the question....NO WAY. I don't ever want kids I would ever so wisely preach to anyone who would ask. "I am the oldest of Like a million kids I know better than to want my own!" I thought I was so smart!

The year is 2001, I moved in with serious BF in lieu of marriage, because I'm so smart! And within a couple months of moving in, I'm pregnant with baby # 1. The answer now...I only want 1 baby. I may not have planned it, but this little buggey growing inside me I loved since the minute I found out about her and I'm so smart, I'm a grown up, I will be excellent at this! I become mommy, of my one and only, but I am still the girl who never wanted kids, I can't deal with anyone else's kids. I'm the one NONE of my friends ever ask to baby sit. But MY baby I could handle!

The year is 2005, Poo-key is 3. She is the most wonderful thing in the world but I am just figuring out what it really means to be a mother. Serious BF is now seriously GONE, and I am seriously by myself with my poo koo ca choo! The answer, I would have gotten my tubes tied when I had poo-key, in fact I asked, but they would not do it. I needed to be 25 years old or have 3 kids before I was 25 for them to even discuss permanant contraception with me. Ok that's fine, I'm so smart! I will be THE BEST mother of my only child ever, and I'm definately smart enough to not have more babies!

Enter My Casenova, My Mr. Wonderful, My Prince Charming who had me from the moment...hell, the guy just has me. Still does, I got it bad for this one.! And GUESS WHAT he comes with 2 KIDS! I can't even tell you the extreme sense of concern coming from everyone around me. I can't tell you how many times I heard...with a hesitent voice like they didn't even want to ask..."AND what do you think about the kids" Or "but you don't want any more kids" I can't even describe in writing the sound of OH GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOING! I don't know what it was but the little suckers won me over right away. For the first time ever I actually LIKED these kids that weren't mine. , The answer now...No more BABIES still. We are in fact just dating and I am so smart I know better than that!.

And Valentine's Day, and Hot Tubs and Bottles of Champaygne, and that makes..., the year is only 2006 and guess what I'm having a Bouncing little bundle of Joy! Yeah that's right Me! Little Miss No more Babies, Little miss I'm so smart! Yeah ok, so I wasn't so smart. Infact that was very careless oops. The answer now, I guess everything happens for a reason so sure, what's one more. We'll work it out.

Now it's 2009, I'm a Full time mommy of 4. Short Hills is hell on wheels, but I wouldn't trade her for anything EVER. Now being a mother and a wife is the greatest joy I have. The joy of being able to take off whenever I want and do whatever I want, and having frineds all over the place, has been replaced with the joy of having a few close friends, and cooking great meals. I love my children, and I don't know what I would have done or how my life would be without each and every one of them. Do I want a baby now...well no, and I actually have managed to get that part taken care of. But looking back I cannot believe that I was so convinced that I didn't want kids. In fact, I believe that I NEEDED my kids. I now NEED to be a mother. It has become such a deep and profound part of who I am and what I am proud of. I have learned that i wasn't, and I'm still not so smart. I always have room to learn and grow, and sometimes you don't know what will bring you the greatest joy.



This has been a product of Writer's Workshop from Mama Kat

Back to Reality...

Well , I'm BACK today from our lovely weekend vacate to Mission Beach. While in San Diego, although I had a lot of fun, and much needed relaxation time with Hubby, I missed the kids so bad. So bad in fact that a VERY LARGE portion of our relaxing was spent walking on the sand searching for sea shells to bring home to our little ones cause we knew they'd love them. See this is us looking for shells :)

So I spend my vacation remembering that even though I LOVE the beach, and I don't think that will ever change....see I mean HELLO how can you not love this, anyway, I really love home. And so I was happy to come home to my babies, and then I got here. Granted, i'm happy to see the chitlens, and they're happy to see us, but talk about back to reality!!! I go from this -------->

and now, the truck, needed breaks, well we go to change them, and it needs a Rotor (look baby I spelled it right) the ROTOR is nowhere to be found. can't put it back together. Now Shane had to take me, and Austin and Lex (because they're off track so we have them staying with us until Saturday) they all had to get in the car and drive me to work this morning. Then wonderful hubby had to go home with kids in tow, and find the part. And I get to go to work after being gone for 5 days and now this is pretty much where I'm at! Although it's nice to know I'm needed, its definately a harsh return.

So alas, I am back, back to the daily grind, back to responsibility, back to house work, and home work, and work work...but hey...it's only 2 more days til Friday!!!

Til next time